Destruction

You don't like long kisses
You don't like long hugs
You don't like being tactile
But I only love you
Because I love your smile
I'm sure you're the man of my life
And the one with whom I want to share my life

And I searched your phone and you saw it
I wonder how I could have been stupid
I'm just jealous
I'm nervous

I don't understand why you don't tell me your feelings
What should I understand by these meanings
What I want to do is make love to you
Because that’s how we show that we love and I love you

And even if sometimes I seem like to not understand your words
I know that I am your world
I'm just afraid of being alone
I'm afraid of not being the right one

And I don’t trust myself
I have to think of myself
Because I destroy myself

I just don't feel good enough for you
Then, I keep asking myself in my imagination
And ask me questions
And it causes my destruction

I just want you to show me that you love me
'Cause I'll finally feel that I deserve you
Cause I only show you that I only need you

I take a step forward and I take a step back
I'm afraid that one day there will be no turning back
Because you tell me in life it's not just you
And I agree with you, there is also me

But I spend my days crying
I spend my nights hiding
I know it's not your thing
It's not your fault you're sick
So I throw into the sea to make you feel better, a stick
And I go round and round
Cause I just wanna make love to you

I just don't feel good enough for you
Then, I keep asking myself in my imagination
And ask me questions
And it causes my destruction